I lied about the nicotine gum. I stopped using it two days ago just to get this quitting crap over with. Ironically, now I feel drugged. Everything seems weirdly flat, except when I'm experiencing a wave of giddiness, rage, or extreme sentimentality.
After gritting my teeth through multiple cycles of that at work yesterday, I took the rest of the week off to do pretty much whatever I want for a few days. I mean, I have the time, and I don't think you get any points for doing this the hard way.
I hate that I'm still making such a big deal about this; it's been almost four months, just be done with it and shut the fuck up about it, right? But it kind of is a big deal. It wasn't until I divorced nicotine from cigarettes that I realized just how powerful a drug it is. There's a reason why so many people quit only to take it back up again, and it's not just because smoking cigarettes is really fun.
Time to quit whining and find new and better distractions. You all have a good weekend, you nice people, you.